Love can be a strange thing. It can make us do things that we never thought possible, and it can make us feel things that we never thought we could. This is especially true for one Kentucky mother who recently professed her love for quadruple murder suspect Bryan Kohberger. In a series of diary-like posts, Brittney J. Hislope has professed her love for the accused murderer and called him her “divine masculine.”

Hislope’s posts began five days after Kohberger was arrested in connection with the murders of four University of Idaho students: Kaylee Goncalves, 21, Madison Mogen, 21, Xana Kernodle, 20, and Ethan Chapin, 20. In her posts, Hislope defends her “love” for Kohberger, which includes graphic details about how she’s gone “years” without sex and searches Google for his images at night. She also uses the phrase “divine masculine counterpart” in several posts and says she knows they’re meant to be together because of their astrological signs.

Hislope has also talked about sending photos to Kohberger and how she wants her makeup to look “perfect.” She has also written about her feelings for Kohberger in a stream-of-consciousness-type ramblings. In one post, she wrote, “To anyone that says I’m not righteous for having the feelings that I do for Bryan, I will say that you likely aren’t anyone to judge me in that regard and also you may not understand my emotions and hardships and misfortunes…”

Kohberger is being held without bail in Latah County, Idaho, while he awaits trial for his alleged pre-planned attack on the four college students and attempt to cover his tracks. If convicted, he could face the death penalty. His preliminary hearing is set for the week of June 26.

This isn’t the first time a “love-struck woman” has confessed her feelings for a suspected murderer during a highly publicized trial. Retired police lieutenant Lisa Dadio said that a “fascination” with serial killers always exists where people “become enamored and literally fall in love with the epitome of a bad guy.” She said it usually starts with letters saying they think the killer is innocent, then they might send x-rated pictures and it escalates from there.

Love can be a strange thing indeed. For one Kentucky mother, her love for Bryan Kohberger, the quadruple murder suspect, has been a strange, yet passionate journey. Through her posts, she has professed her love for him, and defended her feelings for him. As the case against Kohberger continues, it will be interesting to see how her feelings for him evolve.