After two years of silence, Armie Hammer is finally ready to tell his story. In a new interview with Air Mail, the actor reveals the depths of his despair following the sexual abuse allegations that ended his career. He also shares details of his childhood abuse and how it shaped his interests in BDSM.

In 2021, Hammer faced a series of sexual abuse allegations that put him at the center of a media firestorm. He was dropped by his agency, WME, and fired from a plethora of projects, including Jennifer Lopez’s “Shotgun Wedding.” Hammer denies all criminal wrongdoing, but admits to being emotionally abusive toward former partners he had met on the internet.

The actor, who was accused of having cannibalistic fetishes, now says that his interest in BDSM originates from being sexually abused by his youth pastor when he was 13 years old. “What that did for me was it introduced sexuality into my life in a way that it was completely out of my control,” Hammer says. “I was powerless in the situation. I had no agency in the situation. Sexuality was introduced to me in a scary way where I had no control. My interests then went to: I want to have control in the situation, sexually.”

In the interview, Hammer goes into great detail discussing some of the accusations against him, undermining the nature of the allegations and painting a very different picture than what was set forth by his accusers. The most damning allegation against Hammer was by a woman, known as Effie, who accused him of violently raping her, which led to the LAPD investigation. Hammer comments on his relationships with accusers Courtney Vucekovich and Paige Lorenze, acknowledging that “the power dynamics were off” and admitting “one million percent” that he was emotionally abusive towards both women.

Hammer reveals he contemplated suicide as his life was unraveling. “I just walked out into the ocean and swam out as far as I could and hoped that either I drowned, or was hit by a boat, or eaten by a shark,” Hammer tells Air Mail, recalling a time in the Caymans. “Then I realized that my kids were still on shore, and that I couldn’t do that to my kids.”

Hammer denies criminal wrongdoing, and boils down his behavior and subsequent accusations to being “an asshole.” “I’m here to own my mistakes, take accountability for the fact that I was an asshole, that I was selfish, that I used people to make me feel better, and when I was done, moved on,” Hammer says.

The actor says he has improved through his recovery, and is now working as a sober companion to a fellow recovering addict out of rehab. Hammer also confirms past reports that he has found a friend in Robert Downey Jr., who has supported him through his downfall and stint in rehab.

Hammer concludes, “There are examples everywhere, Robert [Downey Jr.] being one of them, of people who went through those things and found redemption through a new path. And that, I feel like, is what’s missing in this cancel-culture, woke-mob business. The minute anyone does anything wrong, they’re thrown away. There’s no chance for rehabilitation.”

After two years of silence, Armie Hammer has finally spoken out about his experience with sexual abuse allegations and the subsequent downfall of his career. In a new interview with Air Mail, Hammer reveals the depths of his despair, his childhood abuse, and his journey to redemption. While Hammer denies any criminal wrongdoing, he admits to being emotionally abusive toward former partners he had met on the internet. Hammer has since found support from Robert Downey Jr., and is now working as a sober companion to a fellow recovering addict. His story serves as an example of redemption and the power of rehabilitation.